Reason for the Blog Hiatus

I know, I know, it is total bad form not to post in nearly a month. I needed to step away and reconsider what my intentions were with regards to this blog. I discovered that writing these posts opened up some old doors for me. I began writing these posts, but then I quickly shifted to writing in a journal again.

Maintaining a journal was something I used to do quite regularly. There was a period of about five to six years where I would log an entry daily. It was an important part of my routine and I would use it to drive the internal dialog that kept me going. It was my dumping ground, and it was the place I went to sort things out. At some point during graduate school my journal writing had ground to a halt, and I no longer saw the point in logging daily entries. I did write occasionally, but these entries were often very sporadic.

I've experimented with blogging off and on for a number of years, and I have a bitter sweet relationship with it. I enjoy being able to share my ideas and its kind of exciting to know that my words exist somewhere out there on a random server. However, I feel that the writing is often a bit restrictive in the sense that I am conscious of someone reading it. My writing takes on a different tone, and I often feel like I am holding back. It also seems like I am less inclined to go out on a limb. In my journal I can stumble and fall and no one ever sees it except me. Most of the stuff I am going through recently would have to fall into the stumbling category, and I've preferred to sort things out in the privacy of my own journal.

The journal has worked its way back into my routine, and now I am sitting here wondering what purpose does this blog serve? I guess the only way to find out is to start experimenting with it. The main hurdle I am facing is what to do about content... does the world really want to hear what I have to say? Furthermore, do I really want to put myself out there?